Hunger

God, I am hungry!

I haven't eaten in two days. Why? I feel numb and aimless. I feel like I've lost my fight. When it was suggested in a class that we pick a discipline to try, I felt drawn to fasting. I know, it is one I have done many times before, and the idea was probably to try something new - out of the ordinary. I was drawn to it because it seemed like hunger would be appropriate for what I was feeling. Like the line in a bluegrass song I like:

Mr. Engineer reach up and pull the whistle
Let me hear that lonesome sound
For it blends with the feeling that's in me
The one I loved has turned me down

O God, you are my God, I seek you,
my soul thirsts for you;
my flesh faints for you,
as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
²So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary,
beholding your power and glory.
³Because your steadfast love is better than life,
my lips will praise you.
⁴So I will bless you as long as I live;
I will lift up my hands and call on your name.

⁵My soul is satisfied as with a rich feast,
and my mouth praises you with joyful lips
⁶when I think of you on my bed,
and meditate on you in the watches of the night;
⁷for you have been my help,
and in the shadow of your wings I sing for joy.
⁸My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.

⁹But those who seek to destroy my life
shall go down into the depths of the earth;
¹⁰they shall be given over to the power of the sword,
they shall be prey for jackals.
¹¹But the king shall rejoice in God;
all who swear by him shall exult,
for the mouths of liars will be stopped.

Psalm 63